Finding my own magic

It felt like a call.

A pull toward something 'other' that I couldn't quite place.

Honestly I just thought I was weird.

When I was younger I of course went through a "witch" phase that most girls I think go through. The reason that most of us go through this phase is because we are just finding out who we are at that stage and since this society isn't exactly woman friendly we are looking for ways to embrace the power we feel within ourselves and find ways to express that power and make a space for ourselves in the world at large.

Now this phase doesn't last for everyone. In fact most women move on to other things but for some of us....the phase never really ends.

I know that I kept getting called back.

My eyes always wandered over to the spell books in the library.

I was forever picking up friendly rocks and gems because they made me feel something electric.

I planted plants that felt lucky or important in some way.

And I always felt somehow...when my intentions were set....things worked out for me.

So a few years ago I finally let myself really start to research everything. What was witchcraft exactly? Why did I keep feeling this pull? What was it that drew me in?

And basically....it just felt right.

The more I researched and read the more I understood what I was feeling was just a natural part of me. I had picked up certain rocks because they were what I needed at the time. The books I longed for held the spells and rituals I was looking for in order to manifest better and greater things into my life.

But the biggest thing that happened was when I got pregnant with my second child.

I had had a miscarriage previously and it had done a number on me. So when we started to try and conceive again I was determined to do whatever I could to enhance my chances. I ate better. I took my vitamins. I followed all my doctor's instructions. And I carried around a raw rose quartz crystal with me everywhere. And when I found out that I was pregnant again I continued to carry that crystal. It helped calm my nerves about this pregnancy and it made me feel content and safe. Was it all in my head? I mean you could say so....but why does that mean it didn't work? Plenty of things go on in our heads that make no sense but this felt right and each night when I would hold it before putting it next to me on the nightstand I felt better and even if that is all it did....that is it's own kind of magic.

I'm happy to say that I gave birth to a healthy baby....and that rose quartz sits proudly on my alter and I thank it daily for the energy it gave me.

Now if that isn't witchcraft and magic....well I don't know what is.

So now I'm a practicing witch (Though in the broom closet IRL but happy to open up here on the web) and I have rituals and practices that make my magic stronger and more a part of my life each day.

So join me in finding your own magic and sharing our abilities and power with the world.

It's calling.